Baby Hungry

My goal for 09 is to have a baby. When I hear this song (it should be playing), I apply the lyrics to how I feel about my whole infertility issue (in addition to feeling a little frustrated, emotional, sad, depressed, angry, overwhelmed, self pity....at least when it comes to this topic). The "you" is the baby we're waiting for, the "they" is everyone who is pregnant or has a baby or is just blessed enough to be able to have a baby. I had a whole novel written out about how I'm feeling right now, but I figured this explained it simple enough:

Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Jealous of the way they walk, the way they talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got
I'm jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When I just want to be the way we were

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Well, I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me